What is stopping me from my success? I often sit and think, or I will see others basking in the glory of making their dreams come true, then sit and think, “oh wow I need to be doing that!” Doing what? Something that someone else is doing? That something may be right for them but it may be all wrong for me!
The first thing that always comes up when trying to find your purpose in life is: What are you good at doing? What makes you smile when you’re doing it? What could you do all Day every Day and not get tired of doing it? Those are all good questions, but so very hard for me to answer, because there are several things that I love doing! So how can you break your talents into one ? This is what I am fighting with myself on a daily basis. I love everything to do with the Entertainment World. Acting, Singing, Dancing, Making movies, writing screen plays, modeling; but I also love to cook and help others in need. When I say “In Need” I don’t mean only monetarily, I mean in need of a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, some words of encouragement, words of advice. So, I ask again how can I possibly put those 3 things together and make a business out of it?
What comes to mind when I look at all the things that I love doing; Catering, becoming a lounge singer, managing other artist out there, acting, producing, directing…I don’t know, there are so many options, I just don’t know how to take the first step towards them all.
I know the first thing that most of you are going to tell me is to go back to school. Get a good education in the fields that I am interested in. Ok, I guess that makes sense, but can I tell you this; When I was in College majoring in Music like I wanted to do, I was studying about everything that was not pertaining to music. So why take a course when it’s not going to teach me anything valid on the subject at hand! what I am now doing and have been for the past 2 years is studying at my own pace, with accredited courses from online based schools. Whats good about these Universities they are free! What is better than free Education!!!!! I am learning on the subjects that I need to focus on.
For the longest time, I have been fighting with myself to let go of self-doubt. Thinking at my age I can never follow through with my dreams. Thinking that I’m not smart enough to venture into the world of Entrepreneurship. I am tired of thinking what my family will think of me when I make decisions that make a difference in my life. I have to start prioritizing my time much better, instead of playing games on my phone or checking my IG account several times a Day, I need to put all that time and effort into building my dream up. Networking with the right people, staying on the positive side of life, instead of letting the negative side enter my mind and stay. Negativity you can visit me but you can not stay! Say Hi to me and Bye at the same time!
It is now my time! My time to shine! My time to move onto bigger and greater things! No longer will I let the words of those that are not willing to or wanting to do something with their lives aside from working a Just Over Broke (JOB). Excuse me if I want more out of life! Excuse me that I want to be the one to call the shots, to take my vacation when I want to and not have to wait for approval! Excuse me for wanting to be at the top instead of working my ass off just to see someone younger and less qualified than me get the promotion I was aiming for! Excuse me for wanting the best for ME! Its sad when you have been with a company for several years, you see a position open up that you know you are very well qualified for, you apply, you get the interview but you are rejected. That was the deal breaker for me! Like damn, I’m never going to move up, they are never going to let me progress within this company! I refuse to stay where I am at, so it’s time to let go! Walk away! Dont look back! The time that I was spending on-line, filling out applications, looking for work was time that I could have been putting towards my goals. Time is something that you can not get back. Use it wisely. Put it towards something useful.
Today is a new day, make it worth something! Dont sit and procrastinate! Do something you’ve never done before! Step out on Faith!