Lord, has this been a difficult year for me already, and it’s just the 3rd month in!! What in the World is going on with me? My life! Why can’t I get to a better place? I’ll tell you why; because I am stuck on believing that I can not get to a better place. That I am stuck at my dead-end job,where I have to live pay check to pay check, instead of thinking of bigger and better possibilities(blessings) to enter my life.
Growing up, I had everything I could ever ask for. Wonderful big homes, able to travel whenever and wherever we wanted. Spending 11 glorious days in Hawaii..The Bahamas, don’t even get me started on that vacation!! Yes, back then everything was cheaper, and better, but why did the fun have to stop just because I am an adult now?
Recently, I have been having deep feelings about my life. Not to the point where I want to end my life, but where I want to make some major changes!. I want to live the abundant life GOD has planned for me. I want to be blessed by the favour of GOD. how can I make this happen? Get out there and WORK! Not at a 9 to 5 job, but work at my goals.
I’m going to take you back again to my younger Days.. My school Days. I went to a private School in Vallejo ,Ca. Vallejo, The hometown of Baby Bash,E40, living in the Bay Area, where great actors like Shemar Moore grew up. Getting back to my school years. I use to write songs, sing and act. I got the lead part in all but one of the school plays that were produced. I hung out with E40(Earl Stevens) he would hang out at my house on Diana dr, with his cousins and friends. We hung out quite a bit. Now it’s like we don’t even know one another… Baby bash as well, but Bash does acknowledge my presence. He is a good example of staying true to his friends and fans. Now, getting back to my high school Days, I wont a song, had it copy written, and being that I went to this private school, I was able to befriend Peter Michael Escovedo III (yes, Sheila E’s brother) and Danny Thomas of Confunkshun. They took my lyrics and told me that they would put it to music, did I hear from them again, no… I’m not worried about them taking my song, using the lyrics, because it is under a copyright. My point with this is, I put my trust in people, and never followed up. If I had the mentality of not caring about my lyrics, then why should they? If I didn’t ask or keep in touch with them regarding my music, then why should they keep in touch with me. I thought, hey my song is in the hands of very famous people, so I’m good..LIES!!!! Pure bold face LIES!!!! to myself!! isn’t that pathetic!!!
TIME TO MAKE THAT CHANGE….
Michael Jackson could not have said it any better. Start with the man(woman in my case) in the mirror. I am going to make so many major changes!!! I notice that GOD is bringing people with positive mindsets into my life. I have a few celebs following me on Twitter and IG. I asked myself when I first noticed the follows, why in the world are they following me? Well, now I say, “GOD brought them into my life for a reason. utilize them.” I am not saying I am going to be a crazy fan and push my products and ideas onto them. I am going to go to them with questions, ask for advice,yes promote my work, but not to the point of bugging them.. I know they have lives too, but again they were brought into my circle for reason.
BOOKS OF MOTIVATION:
Aint that the Truth…Darrin Dewitt Henson…Act like a Success …STeve Harvey and of course Joel Osteen.. I receive daily emails from Joel(like everyone else) but it seems like when I am feeling a certain way, the mails that presents itself is directly words that I need to hear.Sometimes a person just needs that one or few words to get their day going.
Taking out the Trash….
Things that are nonexistent in my life has to be thrown away.. That includes people who are not supportive of me, of my dreams. That may sound mean, but now is the time for me to focus on ME!! I will no longer allow my so-called family and friends, place negative words into my head. From this Day forth, I will stay motivated and positive.
I met a gentleman 4 years ago, Microphone Bully..We connected on Twitter..He is a strong motivator..He states on his pages daily, that he is going to do big and great things.. He is now the owner of a clothing boutique in New York, and he has a wonderful website out , and he is still working on music.. So see, when you set your mind to do something you can achieve anything.I plan on staying connected to those that connect with me, bringing positivity into my life!
Thanks for listening!!!
Peace and Love from Me to YOU!!!.